Have You Lived?

Have you lived?

Do you really look at yourself in such a way that it all lays bare before yourself?  Try this sometime, you'll be surprised at your reaction to yourself, if you're truly objective.

The question flies around in my brain

If I could, would I do it again?

Would I think the thoughts and say the words

Could all see my feelings, was I heard.

My true intentions, beliefs in my heart

Would my life mean something or simply be forgot.

I once was innocent, clean, and true.

I never had feelings that made me blue.

Did I risk too much or not enough

Did others around me feel that I made life rough.

As a child I had not a care

When I grew older I became aware

Of things corrupt, things not to be done

To others as well as my own

This is my story, one of questions

What did I learn, Did I learn my lesson.

I don’t want to feel to smart

to reach the point that I don’t follow my heart.

That guide that lights my way, through each day.

The sense of being, of what is wrong and right

Have I stood up for good? Have I put up a fight?

Kidding aside, what have I achieved?

Perceptions are what they believe

So can you say, in me what do you see?

A man who is lonely, and feels solitude.

A man who is unsure of where to go or what to do?

I must find the answer and find it soon.

To whom does my direction matter

What do they care of me?

Am I completely untied am I really free?

Do I live for myself, do I care for me?

Why am I so confused? Am I alive?

Am I the only one I deprive?

I am always concerned with giving.

But, do I really live?  I once was told,

All must die, but some never really live.

I can’t let this pass without learning

I have to quench this yearning,

the wanting for more the desire to go higher

out of control with my thoughts and deeds.

Forgetting about all my responsibilities and needs.

I can’t get depressed, lonely and distressed

then I’m no good to anyone least myself

I want to be wanted loved and caressed.

Will I remain true to myself, my loved ones no less

For that is the only way,
to carry on each day.

Have I made the most of my days walking this life

Living for me and not caring to die.

Remember this thought to myself I must give

All must die, Have I really lived?


I can say that I have!  Have you?